My judgement…

I’ve thoguht many times that if my wife and/or children are murdered, I’m going to do my best to kill the perpetrator. Irresponsible? Irrational? Crazy? Maybe so. But I have passed judgement on the killer and he/she should be eliminated.

Statements on judgement like I made above make some people uncomfortable. Religious people will tell me that God only has the right to judge. And being a weak agnostic, maybe they are right. Maybe they are wrong. But I have judged my fellow man/woman since we are both humans and that human has killed that which is part of me, that which I loved so deeply. But the law will call me a vigilante. And some fellow humans of mine will judge me. If I’m incarcerated, that is extremely unfortunate but since I judged, I better be ready to be judged. Even if I hate the judgement.

And then what about the judgement of those that love me? Those that are also hurting because of the loss but have chosen not to kill the perpetrator? Those that are depending on me to help them through the loss? Ah such a boggle! But in the end, responsibility rules all. As much as I want, screw that, need to enact my own justice, I have a responsibilty to my family.

Losing it all would kill me.

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